Monday, November 10, 2008

Hope, Tears and Laughter...

Hey you readers! Yeah, it's me again... I know I might seriously be tripping when I say that my friend, Amal and I will be publishing a book (I hope so...).... However, no one knows what the future holds so who knows.... It could happen.... Anyways, for you readers out there, here's a little preview... Hope you enjoy it... Tell me by leaving me a comment and I'll tell my friend what ya thought... Oh, you can always go to my friend's blog, http://strangerontrain.blogspot.com/ to read more about her.... Yeah, all about her...HeX2.. Have fun!!!

Hope stared at the starless night above her. She felt so different tonight. She didn’t even feel like herself. She turned and looked towards the dancing floor. Rich high class people danced gracefully, their expensive jewelleries sparkling brightly. Their expensive dresses and tuxedos were one of a kind Italian designer clothes made especially for tonight. Hope caught her reflection at the mirror. She almost didn’t recognize herself. Wearing a strapless electric purple dress, draped with expensive diamonds and white gold, she looked very different. She quickly scanned the ballroom for the time and saw the grandfather clock resting grandly in the corner. It was almost 11 o’clock.

“Can I have this dance?” a voice asked her from behind her. Hope turned around and found Ryan smiling at her. Noticing her uneasy expression, he continued, “It’s okay if you don’t want to. I’m not forcing you.” Ryan held her hand and stared into her big brown eyes. Her eyes were filled with fear, he could see that clearly.

Hope realized that Ryan was staring at her. She looked down at her feet trying to avoid his eyes. Eventually, her gaze fell onto his hands which were still holding hers. Ryan’s warm hand felt so nice. She wished that he would just take her in his arms and hold her until she forgot about all her foolish fears. ‘In your dreams, honey,’ she mocked herself.

Suddenly, without warning, Ryan pulled Hope into his arms close to him. She could now feel his warm breath fanning her right cheek. She stared into Ryan’s turquoise eyes. She felt safe in his arms and she didn’t why but somehow it still felt nice. Ryan looked at her and uttered the words that she had been longing to hear since she first got to know him.

“I love you, Hope. I’ve loved you since the day I first laid eyes on you…”

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Our Time Is Here... From Camp Rock

We're done but it's not over
We'll start it again
Out to the end of the day
It keeps getting better
Don't be afraid
we'll do it together

Come on
come on
You know
It's your time to move
It's my time move
Come on
Come on
Let go
Leave it all behind
Your past and mind

Gone are the days of summer
We couldn't change it if we tried
Why would we want to
Let's go where we got to
Our paths will cross again in time
It's never the same tomorrow
And tomorrow's never clear
So come on
come on
You know
Our time
Our time is here

We know but we're not certain
How can we be
How can we see what's ahead
The road keeps on turning
And all we can do is travel each day to the next

Come on
come on
You know
It's your time to move
It's my time move
Come on
Come on
Let go
Leave it all behind
Your past and mind

Gone are the days of Summer
We couldn't change it if we tried
Why would we want to
Let's go where we got to
Our paths will cross again in time
It's never the same tomorrow
And tomorrow's never clear
So come on
come on
You know
Our time
Our time is here

Yeah! Yeah!
Come on
Come on
Come on
Our time is here

Gone are the days of summer
We couldn't change it if we tried
So come on
Come on
Come on

Come on
Come on
Come on

So come on
come on
You know
Our time
Our time is here


Who Will I Be

How to choose, who to be
Well lets see
There's so many choices now
Play guitar, be a movie star
In my head of voices

Why not try everything
Why stop, reach for any dream
I can rock
Cause it's my life, and now's the time

[Chorus:]
Who will I be, it's up to me
All the never ending possibilities that I can see
There's nothing that I can't do
Who will I be, yes I believe
I get to make the future what I want to be
If I can make up anyone and know the choice is up to me
Who will I be

If I decide
I'm the girl to change the world
I can do it, anytime
Opportunity right in front of me, and the choices are mine

Why not try everything
Why stop, reach for any dream
I can rock
Cause it's my life, and now's the time

[Chorus]

I want to find out who I am inside
Who will I be
I want to show the way, the way that I can show
Who will I be

[Chorus]

Who will I be
Who will I be

This is another song from Camp Rock... Here I Am

They tell you a good girl is quiet
And that you should never ask why
Cause it only makes it harder to fit in
And you should be happy, excited
Even if you're just invited
Cause the winners need
Someone to clap for them
It's so hard just waiting
In a line that never moves
It's time you started making
Your own rules

You gotta scream until
There's nothing left
With your last breath say
Here I am, here I am
Make em listen
Cause there is no way you'll be ignored
Not anymore, say
Here I am, here I am
Here I am, here I am

You only get one life to work it
So who cares if it's not perfect
Say "it's close enough to perfect for me"
Why should you hide from the thunder
And the lightening that your under
Cause there ain't nobody else you wanna be
If how your living isn't working
There's one thing that`ll help
You got to finally just stop searching
To find yourself

You gotta scream until
There's nothing left
With your last breath say
Here I am, here I am
Make em listen
Cause there is no way you'll be ignored
Not anymore, say
Here I am, here I am
Here I am, here I am

The world better make some room
Yeah move over, over
Cause your coming through
Cause your coming through

You gotta scream until
There's nothing left
With your last breath say
Here I am, here I am
Make em listen
Cause there is no way you'll be ignored
Not anymore, say
Here I am, here I am
Here I am, here I am
Here I am

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

This Is Me (lyrics) from Camp Rock

I've always been the kind of girl,
That hid my face,
So afraid to tell the world,
What I've got to say,
But I have this dream right inside of me,
It's time to let it show,
It's time to let you know,
To let you know,

Chorus:
This is real,
This is me,
I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be now,
Gonna let the light shine on me,
Now I found who I am,
There's no way to hold it in,
No more hiding who I wanna be,
This is me...

Verse 2:
Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark,
To dream about a life,
Where you're the shinning star,
Even though, it seems,
Like it's too far away,
I have to believe in myself it's the only way,

(Chorus)

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Invisible by Taylor Swift...

She can't see the way your eyes,
They light up when you smile,
She'll never notice how you stop and stare,
Whenever she walks by,
And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her,
But you are everything to me,

CHORUS:
I just wanna show you,
She don't even know you,
Never gonna love you like I want to,
But you just see right through me,
If you only knew me,
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable,
Instead of just invisible,
Oh yeah, yeah...

There's a fire inside of you,
That can't help but shine through,
She's never gonna see the light,
No matter what you do,
And all I think about is how to make you think of me,
And everything that we should be,

CHORUS
-BRIDGE-
Like shadows in the fading light,
Oh we're invisible,
I just wanna open your eyes,
And make you realise,
I just wanna show you,
She don't even known you,
Baby, let me love you let me want you,
But you just see right through me,
But if you only knew me,
We could be beautiful, miracle, unbelievable,
Instead of just invisible...

Monday, July 7, 2008

Untitled...

Walking down the same path,
The path I'm on everyday,
But today,
Something is wrong,
Something isn't right,
It's not the same,
Nothing is familiar,
Everything is just a blur,
And the warmth that I use to feel in my heart has disappeared,
It has been replaced,
By something gloom, miserable and empty,
This thing surrounds my heart and soul,
Consuming all the happiness and joy I use to feel,
'Why?' I asked myself as a shiver ran down my spine,
And then I saw him,
I tried to say something, anything,
But I felt lost for words,
Speechless even,
Because it hurt too much,
So I turned and walked calmly away,
Hoping, praying that these feelings would just disappear,
Then, I heard his call,
But I just kept walking,
'Why had I not seen the signs? Why did I not see that he was in love? Why had I been so blind?!'
He tried endlessly to tell me,
To show me,
But I pushed it away,
Thinking I was paranoid...
Everyone knew, they tried to tell me,
But I still wouldn't listen...
Now he's with another and I'm left with nothing...
But a lingering memory...

A Moment...

For a moment,
Just take a step back,
For a moment,
Just take the time to appreciate your surroundings,
For a moment,
Just take a deep breathe,
For a moment,
Just take life a step at a time,
All you need is one moment,
To treasure, to remember, to cherish,
One moment,
To cry, to laugh, to weep,
Just one moment will do,
Because a lot could happen in a moment,
A man taking his last breathe,
A woman seeing a car making it's way directly for her but is unable to move in time,
It's just all up to you how you decide to spend every moment in life,
But bear in mind that no matter what happens,
At least you had that one moment to share...

Cool People I Met This Year...

I know that it's a little too late to be writing this( I knew I should have done it earlier...) but anyhow I don't care I'm just going to write and post it anyways... Those people I was referring to(Please refer to the title... And PAY ATTENTION!!!)are actually what people in my school(Well, not all of us just the upper forms)call freshmen. Anyway, just a few months back my friend, Suganisha introduced me to some of her sister's friends Regina, Mithra, Shumita and Priya... Guess what?! I discovered that some of them were from my primary school but we had NEVER I mean NEVER crossed one another's path... Wow, what a small world... Well, literally... Anyway, after having small talks here and there I got to know them much better... I have to say that they are FULL of surprises and are extremely talented and creative... Hear this(I mean read this...ops...Sorry...), they came up with this great idea to cheer up a friend or just to make them smile again... By writing them short yet sweet poems... Wow, what an amazing friend, right?! Oh and they are all involved for writing the poems... I mean they ALL contribute... Anyhow, I managed with a little help from Suganisha and her sister, Losshini to convince two of them to give me their poems... It's directly after this little and/or small(if you can call this little or small) post... Read it careful and appreciate it!!! I don't know about you but reading these poems has filled me with wonder and mystery... HaX2...Lol... Enjoy these magnificent pieces of work...

Midnight by Regina...

Feelings of sorrow washed over me,
As I try to go to sleep,
'Why do I keep getting these feelings?'
Is a question no one but I can answer,
But which I don't have the answers to...

These feelings slowly surround me,
Engulfing and pulling me into its depth,
I feel lost, confused and empty,
As I try to surface,
I am pulled down,
Again and again...

And now as it's nearing midnight,
I get to sleep,
Still feeling confused and lost...

Mixed Feelings by Mithra...

Misery, gloom and emptiness,
As these feelings flow through my soul,
I started to wonder,
Why do I get these feelings?

I am not facing any pressure,
I am not under pressure,
I am not in trouble...
So why do I keep getting these feelings?

I tried to push them away.
But they keep creeping back,
Creeping into my soul,
Creating a feeling I've not felt in a very long time...
Sadness...

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Time...

Like a river,
It flows endlessly,
Like the seasons,
It waits for no one,
Like life,
It's filled with ups' and downs'
Like the air you breathe,
It's precious down to every little second,
It can't be repeated,
Nor can it be brought back,
Everyone has only a chance,
One chance to get it right,
Before it disappears...
To reappear many years later...
So don't let it slip away,
Like grains of sand,
But hold on tight,
As if your very life depended on it...
So that you'll be content,
And not filled with regrets and sorrow...

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

A little word of advice...

Hey, did you ever tell someone about your plans and they just laugh it of as if it's like a joke?! Then, they tell you to quite messing around and get back to your senses or they'll just call you names... Well, it's sad isn't it... I mean the way they act makes you think that you are not capable but you are and you know it... So really I don't think you should bother at all what they think you know anything is possible... So why turn it down before you've tried it... I guess what I'm trying to get is pay no mind to non believers who only want to bring you down... Even though, it may seem like they're are succeeding at times try not to let it show that they've gotten to you... Play it cool... Eventually, they'll get bored of trying to pull you down and move on... Which is fantastic...

A poem by me... Is it even a poem?! I'm not sure...

This poem is written by me but is most definitely not related... Tell me what you think... Some of my friends found it quite deep while some just ask me who this poem is referring to... So I'm telling you readers that it's just a poem and has no connection to me or anyone else for that matter... Here goes:

I closed my eyes,
And took a deep breathe,
Pain and misery slowly gripping my heart,
Shattering it into a million pieces,
Making it impossible to fix...

Every breathe I took was shallow and measured,
Tears threatening to fall at any second,
Not any tears,
But hot, white tears...

I discovered the truth minutes ago,
The reality of it hit me like a sharp, icy breeze,
Finally, it all added up...
Everything from the start,
The joy, happiness and fun,
It all seems so far away now...

The tears I've been holding back finally fell down my cheeks,
The realisation and pain too much to bear any longer,
But strangely after that,
I could still feel a little hope within me,
It was a weak pulse but I could feel it nonetheless...

It was strange this feeling,
But I looked upon it as a sign...
Maybe... Just maybe...,
I had another chance,
Maybe...
Not with this person and not now...
But maybe with another...

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

10 Things I Want Fulfilled... As soon as possible before it's too late...

1.) Meet more cool people... Like my friends...
2.) See a shooting star through a telescope...
3.) Get better grades... Definitely...
4.) Learn to ice skate better...
5.) Travel to other countries... Wow...
6.) Rock climbing... It's been delayed to many times... sigh...
7.) Taking up archery again... It's definitely been ages since I've done that...
8.) World Peace... That is a MUST!!! Can't people see all the wrongs they are doing by having war...
9.) To act a little better... Hey, I didn't get a part in the drama because I was so called to good... HeX2...
10.) To accomplish all of the above... Peace!!! Keep Chilling!!!

Love Me For Me... Why Being Yourself Is So Very Important...

Don't you ever get the feeling that people might only like you for someone that you always pretend to be?! Doesn't it make you want to scream?! I mean there are plenty of people out there who hide who they really are deep inside just to be accepted or just so that they'll fit in... You might think it's weird but what if it were true and that person was none other than you, wouldn't you do the same?!! You know what's worst, you letting someone else mold you, you let them decide what type of person you want to be... I mean everyone's special no matter who they are and where they are... So instead of letting people control you why not try to go with the flow and learn who you're truly meant to be... If you let others control you too much they might as well just take your place, right?!

Your parents might sometimes seem to you as if they were trying to destroy your life but actually they're doing what they think is right... So if they ever try to help do let them in once in a while... It actually helps to have understanding parents around... So if you really are playing a role I suggest you drop it and try to be yourself for once because being yourself is actually a great step to getting accepted by anyone especially new friends... I know this because I've made many friends who not only accept me as I am but who don't ever try and change me... Well, unless I am doing something really wrong but they'll tell it to my face not to my back which I truly appreciate...

So don't play a role, try being you for once... Do things that you want to do and not what others force you to do... This way you can get comfortable knowing yourself and appreciate the fact that you're you... This might sound totally fake but don't brush it away until you've tried it...

Monday, March 31, 2008

Drama Competition... Miracle, luck or just plain hardwork?!

Alright, just about a week ago on the 24th of March my school's drama club joined a competition against 3 other school which was the SMK Seksyen 3 Bandar Kinrara, SMK Seri Aman and of course the school holding the competition itself SMK Seri Serdang. My school begin practicing 4 days before the competition which actually is about 8 hours of practicing all together... Well this is mainly because we were not informed until the last minute... At first the play was (I have to admit it) sort of terrible (not because of the actors or the script) but because of the way that the drama was flowing... It was like a pause here and a pause there which was very noticable... In the end, we managed to pull ourselves together just in time for the drama... And guess what?! By doing so we managed miraculously, to get 3rd placing out of the whole contest... Amazing or what?! Anyway, Seri Serdang got first place with their drama "Beauty is the Beast" which I've got to admit is pretty colourful (you know the clothes)... Coming 2nd place was none other than the SMK Seksyen 3 Bandar Kinrara... (actually everyone sort of admitted that they liked the SMK Seksyen 3's play the best but it was the judges decision not ours...) Unfortunately, getting 3rd place apparently wasn't good enough to make it to the finals so even though we were all a little disappointed we didn't let it stop us from mixing with the members of the other schools' (I mean it does help to have a little friendly competition once in a while, right?!) In the end, vowing that we'll try better next year we all left feeling a little content and happy... You know because we all knew that Seri Serdang and Seksyen 3 deserved to win...Mainly, because they were fantastic and even though we were good we just couldn't compete with them, well, at least for this year... HeX2...I mean if you fall you've got to stand up and keep walking, right?! Until next year, goodbye drama... There's another one of my accomplishment done for this year....

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Friends for Life...

I have to admit that I was really pleased with all the friends I've made since Year 6... Many of them did well in their PMR which is totally cool until I realised that it involved many of them moving to boarding schools located all around Malaysia... I mean I'm really happy for them but at the same time I felt really sad as I was about to lose some of my closest and dearest friends... (Really saying goodbye is so HARD!!!) Well, at least for the first time once you've gotten to your fifth goodbye you'll actually say it as it is...>winks<... ops.... HeX2... I couldn't help it because well, it's the truth...

Anyway, many of them helped me through the years of Form 1 to Form 3 without even a word of irritation... (which is surprising seeing as I usual ask one question too many... HeX2)... Anyway, only with their help did I manage to slid through but now that they're(well, almost all) gone I can't help but miss this great people who helped me in my time of need just as soon as I called for them... I mean are they the greatest or what?! Mhmm... but enough grieving I wish them all the very best in the future and may they succeed in life... Oh yeah, last but definitely not least I would pray that god would bless these people in everything that they may do... May they overcome all obstacles no matter how high or wide... Good Luck Dear Friends!!! Adios and take care... Hope to see you all soon!!!