Write up...

Okay, so I was having breakfast with my mum in a cafe' nearby just the other day when this elderly man walked by to the table opposite me... I kept watching him as he drew out a plastic folder and receipt book from his rather small, black sling bag... Then, he slowly approached the guy who was having breakfast with his son or maybe nephew or stepson (and so the guess goes on) with a what I presume is a pleasant smile on his face (seeing as I was facing his back...)... I was trying to figure out what he was up to when I suddenly caught a glimpse of his light blue plastic folder... It contained many pictures of unfortunate kids... That answered all my questions... The elderly man was asking or rather begging for money to help (or maybe not) an organisation...

So that brings me back to my current topic... How do we tell the difference between a genuine, kindhearted Samaritan and a big, fat (literally) phoney? Like the elderly man I described above... How do I know whether he would really give the money he collected to the rightful owners or simply just used their names to make and keep the profit... Well, I guess one thing's for sure... We can't really tell the difference which makes me feel a little sad... How can it not? I mean you don't even know who you can and cannot trust nowadays... So unless we want to live in a world without hope, trust or loyalty I pray that the authority would take matters into their own hands and try to stop this small petty criminals from getting away and giving good, kindhearted Samaritans a bad name...

A song?

Tell me what you think:

Verse 1:
It's getting cold,
I can hardly breathe,
I feel so alone in this crazy world,
Now tell me, baby,
Do I ever cross your mind,
Now that we're so done...

Chorus:
I still can't believe,
It sounds so insane,
I can barely take it,
It's slowly killing me,
From the inside out,
I know I can't deny,
So why try,
When I know that I can't let you go,

Verse 2:
My heart starts racing,
Everytime that I see you,
I can deny it but you know that it's true,
So tell me, baby,
Why do we play this game,
When it's obvious that you still care... Oh...

Bridge:
Why don't we call it quits,
And just reunite,
Why don't you wanna come back me,
When it obvious,
That you and I were meant to be... Oh yeah...

So? How was it? I thought it was all right but I'm not sure... Haha...

Excited!!!

Yea!!! Okay, I just recently got myself a facebook account and I manage to track down my best friend in the world from when I was in primary school... And I have to say that I'm pretty excited... We're suppose to meet up after SPM... So if all goes well, IT'LL WORK!!! I'm praying it would... I've not seen him since standard 6... Word on the street he's now officially a 'player' (not sports player rather a guy who changes girlfriends almost daily...)... Hmm... I don't know whether I can trust that but I know I trust him... So I'll have to see for myself when we meet up again... I CAN'T wait!!!

Hey!!!

Okay, so you guys must be wondering what I'm up to changing the look of my blog and stuff... Well, to be honest I have no idea... It just sounded FUN!!! But let me tell you that it's a tedious job so I'm not going to change it too often... It gets boring after a while... You get my point?! So don't expect me to keep modifying my blog because it gets stone-cold boring... Anyway, I think I'm not as active here in my own blog anymore... Ever since my friends and I made up a blog, I just seem to update there often... But don't worry, I'll make sure I'll be updating this blog as well for me and of course... YOU GUYS!!! Who I must say totally ROCK for keeping up with my boring, sometimes whacky, sometimes insane post... Hehe.... THANKS SO MUCH!!! I really appreciate it!!! But do check out the blog I was talking about... It's really active because we have like 6 writers... Haha... Rock ON!!!

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BEEP!!! UPDATES!!!!!!

Oh my goodness!!! The one week break I've been waiting for is finally here... I'm so wiped out from the one week of exam... This holiday is just what I needed... I know that the exam will continue after this one week but please let me enjoy this one week in bliss before bursting my bubble of happiness... *sigh*... This trials is extremely stressful and I don't even know why... It feels worst then it did when I did my PMR trials... Maybe it's because I know that this exam, SPM is the stepping stone to being a somebody or a nobody... Well, I don't actually try to think about it but my mum constantly reminds me... So yeah, it's always floating in the back of my mind no matter what I do... Even listening to music can't chill me like it use to... *sigh*... I'm anxious to get it over with... But then again I'm too afraid to even think about it... I'm FREAKING out here, man... And I don't know what to do... HELP!!! I guess what I really need to know is that I'm not alone when it comes to this topic... So if anyone out there feels the same, please let me know... That way we might be able to get through this together... Okay, I'm all out of stuff to say... Later, people...

Opinions please...

Hey dudes and dudettes of the world!!!! Check out this picture and tell me what you think...

Read ME!!!

Wow!!! I haven't updated in some time... I know... Anyways, nothing really interesting had happened lately except for the formation of a brand new blog by my friends and I... You guys should check it out when you can http://caughtinthemiddle92.blogspot.com... It only has 4 female writers so far... Myself included... But we're expecting an addition to the blogging family... Lol... 3 other guys who I hope would seriously make our blog more FUN and worth while to check out... Anyway, I really want to know what you guys think... So either leave a comment or just tell it to me in school... I'll be happy to make improvements if it means gaining new followers... Well, that's all for now...

Yasmin Ahmad's Interview with my cousin...

This specific interview took place a day before she was admitted to the hospital due to internal bleeding in the brain which eventually lead to a stroke... Unfortunately, she had passed on today... It is a sad day for us all as she is one of the most revolutionary directors Malaysia has ever and I mean EVER had... May she rest in peace and may she always be remembered for her contributions to both our nation and the film industry in this country....

One Call...

Oh people... Check out the picture of a new band just formed by Johnny Wright consisting of four members, three of whom have been in the industry for some time... The members are A.G., Jose, J.J. aka Justin and last but most definitely not least Chris... Hope you guys would hear from them soon... Their song 'Turn It Up' is amazing... Tell me what you guys think, yeah?!

Hear Me Speak!!!!!!!

Okay, hear me out people... A couple of friends and I are combining the effort & putting them all into one blog... Here's the link... http://caughtinthemiddle92.blogspot.com ... However, it's still under major, and I mean MAJOR constructions... So don't check it out until I've given you the thumbs up...

Happy Birthday!!!

Hey, this post is a little shout out to all the JUNE BABIES out there!!! Have an amazing birthday and may all your dreams and wishes come true... Keep believing in yourself and keep up the faith no matter what people tell you... YOU GUYS ROCK!!!

Oh and this is also an early birthday shout out to a dear friend who I hold quite close to heart!!! You know who you are, Missy!!! Here's another clue if you don't... The person is the vice president of my school's Leo club and her birthday is on the 9th of June... Hehe... If you're reading this, you're an amazing friend... I hope we'll stay just as tight or rather close when we leave school in pursue of our totally different dreams!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHICA!!!

Secret Love by Jojo

Wow, I'm touched by this song... Look it up if you can... Haha... Enjoy...

Boy you’re so hard to believe
Boy you’re so hard to believe

[Verse 1:]
Just a friend
That’s all I’ve ever been to you
Oh just a girl
Who wants to be the center of your world
But I ain’t got much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess that’s not enough
For you to notice me
I’m just your girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you

[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok
But ohh
You don’t know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love

[Verse 2:]
In my dreams
I see us both together constantly
Why can’t you see
This love that’s here for you inside of me
Ohhh
What do I have to do
For you to notice this
You look at her with love
With me it’s just friendship
I’m just your girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you

[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok
But ohh
You don’t know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love

[Bridge:]
What do you see in her
You don’t see in me (don’t see in me)
Boy you’re so hard to believe
Why do you show her love
But there’s none for me
Boy you don’t make sense to me
Is it because I don’t have much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess that’s not enough
For you to notice me
I’m just your girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you

[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok (everything ain’t ok)
But ohh
You don’t know how it feels to be so in love (so in love with you baby)
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love

Boy you’re so hard to believe

Penang...

It's been a year since I last been to Penang... I kind of miss it... When I was last there, my dad planned the most awesome trip ever!!! I'm sorry if I sound like I'm bragging but I really think that the trip to Penang was a really AWESOME one!!! Anyway, he planned to take us hiking for two days in a row... (This may not sound cool to some people but it's really COOL for me...) On the first day, we hiked to an island nearby to have a look at the meramautic lake... The lake really intrigued me because the salt water from the sea and the fresh water from the jungle met but they didn't mix... During the hike there, we saw a black dog in the jungle who sort of lead the way to the lake... (I understand if you find that hard to believe but the dog really did lead the way... Haha)... When we got there, we took a bite and played on the beach not in the sea because a man (from a group of people who were having some company game) was stung by a jellyfish... Haha... Yes, I WAS simply terrified & petrified!!! I was really afraid to enter the sea after that... Anyhow, after an hour or so, a fisherman that we've paid to come & get us back to the mainland arrived in his boat arrived & waited at the jetty nearby... We hopped on the boat & went back for some rest before the hike the very next day...
The next day, we took the same boat to the same island, only we were on the north (or was it south?) side of the island... We got there & hiked up to the lighthouse located aboth 15km up the hill... When we got there, we got the permission from the guy in charge & climbed up to the top of the lighthouse... The view was spectacular & breathtaking... I was in awe... Anyway, while up there, we manage to spot at least 7 eagles (They looked so graceful & free)... Not long later, we hiked down to the beach to wait for my mum & uncle who could not join us for the hike due to a conference... When they got there, we had a nice little barbeque prepared by the fishrman's wife... We even had lobster!!! Courtesy of my uncle... Haha... After eating the parents wanted to chill out, so my dad brought my cousin, Shaun, my sister & I for some water sports... JETSKIING!!! We had a blast but my sister was much wilder than I was on the jetski... She was going extremely FAST!!! I think my sister has a need for speed... Anyway, when we were done, th fisherman brought us all to the middle of the sea for some fishing... It was pretty awesome but I felt kind of sorry for the fishes... But I did manage to catc a few... Haha... Anyhow, on the way back after the fishing, the fisherman allowed my cousin to drive us back... Which was kind of nice of him seeing as my cousin is only 10... Haha... In other words, I MISS IT!!!

FIRIM...

Have you ever heard of FIRIM? Well, if you haven't then I'll fill you in a little about it... It's located in Kepong & it's actually a reserved forest... It's expended since I was last there but I'll quite certain that it's still the same (more or less)... Anyway, I went there some time back with my family & cousins... It was really quite exciting & fun... Well, if you like hiking, climbing & bugs... Oh & of course, if you REALLY love nature... There's a waterfall there along with a canopy walk & if you're really interested get this... There's also a jungle trail instead of the same old boring steps... I mean there are steps but the jungle trail is more for people who want a bit of thrill because the trail is not really that challenging... Haha... Anyways, the water from the waterfall is quite refreshing... I know because I was walking in & out of it... I was busy splashing my sister... Yes, I know I sound a little cruel but I couldn't resist!!! Lol...

Secret Love?!

Hey, read this story it's kind of interesting... All right, it's about two of my friends who I hold quite close to heart... They met not too long ago... The guy is extremely cool, laid back & sweet kind of person... Whereas, the girl is kind, nice and just super cool... They're both equally awesome!!! Anyways, they started talking about little things like school and stuff through the phone and got to know each other much better... Now, they both really, really like one another but they've decided to take it slow... Yea!!! You should really see them, they're so SWEET!!! But it's sort of discreet as they want to keep a low profile... So I can't tell you who they are... But I can say something and that is, if you're from my school you would not know them... Haha... They're not from any of our usual crowd... However, if you guys are reading this, I want to say that I'm totally behind you!!!

Holiday!!!

Yea!!! Finally!!! The 2 weeks I've been waiting for since the exam began... I feel so relieved... Well, not exactly, every time I think about laying back to relax, the fact that SPM is approaching everyday is at the back of mind... Like a little alarm clock, blaring softly but the ringing is slowly ascending every single day... I feel like I'm losing my mind!!! Let's hope that I'll be able to hang in there til then without losing my sanity!!! Haha...

Being hooked on NLT!!!

Oh dear! I have a major problem! I think I'm totally hooked on NLT (Not Like That)... I mean I know they're sort of a last year's all the rage band but I'm still hooked on them or rather their music... It's just so good... How are people able to write music and lyrics at the same time? I mean I've come up with a little something myself but I can't seem to play it on any instrument so far... I might need some help for that... HaX2... Anyway, moving on... I hope I can get over them soon or maybe being hooked on them isn't such a bad thing... I could use their music as a sort of inspiration... Yep, that's a good idea... Now, just to practice what I preach... HaX2... Now, that's the challenge for me... To actually follow my plan and not procrastinate or modify it along the way... Wish me luck!!!

Adam Lambert vs Kris Allen!!!

The results came out yesterday & I was sort of shocked when I heard it...KRIS ALLEN IS THE WINNER OF AMERICAN IDOL SEASON 8!!! 'Cause for one thing Adam Lambert has been said to be a better singer compared to Kris... But I have to say that even though I was 100 percent with Adam Lambert, Kris Allen is also an amazing singer... Oh, what am I saying?! They're both great... They bring different varieties in their music that keeps us (the audience & fans) both guessing and entertained...

The results came out live between 8a.m. to 10a.m. yesterday, while I was still in school... The curiosity was slowly building up in me as I took my maths exam (yes, I know I was suppose to be concentrating...)... Anyway, as soon as the exam ended, I talked to friend, Alex and found out that his mum was watching the show as we speak... So I suggested that he called her to find out because we really wanted to know... (Alex: Kris IS sure to win! Me: No way! I want Adam to win!)... When he called his mum and got the results I was sitting in my classroom casually going through my notes before the exam (so I wasn't there to scream in mock anger)... Anyway, my friend dashed to my class with the results and (literally) shouted it at me... (Alex: KRIS ALLEN WON!!! Me: What???!!! No way!!! I can't believe it! Alex:You better believe it!!!)

I went on twitter yesterday and found a video interview of Adam Lambert after the results... Well, I'll have to say that he took it better than I did (and he's the one who's performing...)... Oh, and there's also news that Danny Gokey is currently working on releasing an album... Oh, I can't wait... I hope Adam & Kris would each release one too...

New friends!!!

I know I've bragged too much for today... But hey, I hardly ever update my blog so I'm just doing this in advance... HeX2... Anyway, straight to the point... I wanted to tell about some extremely (& majorly) cool people I've met in January but got a chance to know them much better now... They're actually in my tuition center... They're amazing & I think you would agree if you ever meet them... They're really friendly, welcoming & well...nice... I haven't really gotten to know all of them but the ones I've met are cool... Besides that, they sure know how to crack up the crowd when gts a little too serious... There are three girls I've met... Taksha, Karthiga & Thenmoli... They all have something different to show... Like Taksah is so hilarious at times it gets hard NOT to laugh... (Man, can that girl crack a joke!!!) Then, there's Karthiga who is also quite funny at times... But she's sweet too... Thenmoli IS a pure genius!!! Actually ALL three of them are!!! Then, the guys I've gotten to know are Haiqal, James, Lum Chee Meng & Fazarul (is it the correct spelling?) They're also quite amazing... Fazarul & sometimes Haiqal too... are always doing crazy stuff to keep things more chilled when we all get a little serious... Wait a minute... ALL the four guys listed above do that... Whoops!!! Anyway, through Karthiga, I've got a chance to meet a really talented guy... He really IS creative... His drawings are undeniably AWESOME!!! I know that because I had a little contests with him & discovered that he's GOOD at what he does... So I've decided to take my place humbly... HeX2... Oh well, maybe I'll be able to get some help from him when I'm designing cards... Lol... All right, I've got to go now... Fare thee well... or however they say it in acting!!! Adios...

Pressure?!

I don't think I'm alone when I say I'm feeling extremely stressed right now... Am I able to do this? Will I get it? All these questions are rolling in my mind like some sort of tidal wave... Oh dear!!! What am I to do? I can't seem to tell anyone because... Guess what? They're all under stress as well... I feel so alone even when it's clear that I'm not... I just wish life in Malaysia was NOT so stressful... People in England were so cool... I wonder what great change has occurred since I was last there... It's been 5 nearing 6 years in October this year... I really would love to return there but I think I'm gonna miss Malaysia a great deal now as all my beloved FRIENDS are here... Hmm... Who knows I might or might not return there someday... However, until then I've gotta FOCUS!!! On my erm... examination... >gulp< SPM!!! Oh wow!!! That was majorly scary!!!

Ice Skating Lessons....

Here's the story... During the long school holiday, my dad decided that we (my sister, two friends and I) could take part in some ice skating lessons. The lessons takes place in Sunway Pyramid (Yes, the shopping mall...) for 5 lessons... The first class was really interesting as I finally managed to fight some of the demons (literally) on the ice.... Anyways, the lessons have passed a long time ago since December actually... Guess what?! I went skating again in January with my cousins and felt more confident!!! Awesome!!! I felt so happy that I couldn't even stop smiling.... Seriously, I was grinning like... I don't know... An insane person... Radical!!! I know!!! I didn't stop even when I nearly fell down a couple of times... HaX2... Anyways, I have two AMAZING friends to thank... Oh & my sis too... They really pushed me to my limits by making it extremely funny and awesome... Btw, they were such quick learners that I started pushing myself to try & catch up... Anyway, it been ages since I last stepped on the ice... So I'm keeping my fingers crossed in hope that my fears won't slowly creep back... HaX2...

Flicker...

Hey readers, I've recently gotten an account with flicker & discovered that it is a really great website to go to when looking for amazing pictures... For example, the butterfly picture next to this post... Doesn't the butterfly look be beautiful? It was taken by a man who takes all this amazing pictures as a hobby I think... Or maybe it's his profession... Either way his pictures are out of this world... They're so close & personal... His pictures enables us to picture the place ourselves as if we were there with him admiring the beauty of the surrounding for ourselves... Wow! I hope I'll be able to do what he does & insert my love for nature into all the pictures I take like he has done... Lol...

Adam Lambert's Dressing

If you have been following the latest season of American Idol you would know who I was refering to when I say Adam Lambert!!! If you don't then watcha still waiting for, go look him up... Lol... I don't know but some people might not really fancy his style but it seems kinda cool to me so maybe I do sorta buy into the whole gothic thing... I mean everyone has their own way of expressing their selves so maybe Adam Lambert is trying to prove something here, that we should all take into consideration... I don't mean turn into a goth but maybe just maybe dressing up really does give an outsider a rough description of how you're like... Whether you're fussy or can't be bothered can really affect one's attitute towards you... Or be like Adam Lambert and dress up once in a while just for the fun of it!!!

NEW BAND!!!

Ever heard of VFC? Well, their full name is Varsity Fan Club and they totally ROCK!!! Well, that's what I think anyways... You guys on the other hand might disagree but I don't really care because they're still awesome to me!!! Anyhow, they're not exactly new seeing as they've been around since 2005. However, their album titled Future Love will only be released in May this year because of some minor delay. So stick around & wait for it... Who knows you might even come to like their fresh and rocking beats... Lol...